now

Now that we're over the dating phase and the 'meeting new people with a possibility of falling in love' phase, life just seems so much easier. Of course, there is the occasional running away from random people hitting on me. The awkward guy in the gym trying to strike a convo and all I can think in my head is: RUN, HE'S GONNA HURT YOU!

Well, I just can't do this anymore. I'm happy retiring to my little bubble. I'd rather just meet people and be happy to just make new friends and remain being friends. It's OK to be single. I've only just come to terms with that. It's OK to be not dating even. I'm happy I don't have someone living rent free in my head. Waiting for them to reply texts or calls or plan the next date, it's so much more stress free now. Plus, I have always sucked at playing any kind of games. I have no clue why some people play games and what kick they get out of it.

I have had friends telling me to "put myself out there". well, you know what? Them friends can shove it. I'm not putting myself out anywhere. This gap year is for me. So... exes, ex flings, future dates can all shove it too. This is me, alone and single and happy.

This is to the few more months I've left here.

lovelove.